So at long last I know that things are forever done with Shelly. The e-mail I just received from her made it apparently clear.
I really feel sorry for her as I feel she doesn't understand the concept of love between partners. She has been alone for so long that she doesn't get what it takes.
I will continue to love her but I must expunge her from my being. I intend to do that. The way I do it by getting back into the dating world.
She wanted to get married so badly but I really don't think she truly loved me. It was all about the ceremony and the trappings. The sad thing is I don't think she will ever have that now. How silly!
I am feeling very bitter at this moment so I need to stop writing. Eventually I will write the entire story and it will not be the same story that Shelly has told.
Anyway - thanks for reading my ramblings.