A Very Bad Day

To say that I detest January 9th is an utter understatement. There are many historical reasons why I don't like this day, but there has been new fuel added to the fire with this January 9th. The person who meant the most to me has written me out of her life. I shared so much of who I was with her and now.... it just hurts! It doesn't make any sense to me - but it hurts and aches. Somehow I have to try and pick up the pieces and move on. Why? That is all I can say at this point.