Wednesday, July 6, 2011

A Little Bit of Everything or A Little Bit of Nothing

A holiday week always seems to be a very weird week!  Your sense of what days are what becomes totally altered.  Sunday seems like Saturday, Monday seems like Sunday and the rest of the week is all messed up.  So though today is Wednesday it certainly doesn't feel like it.  But I must admit it feels good to having worked 2 days and it already being Wednesday!

In my last post I described Friday - Sunday in the mountains.  Monday - the 4th of July was a day to kick back and relax with friends who came up from Denver.  My friend Brenda and her family came up and joined us for a day of sight seeing and relaxing.  It was nice to have visitors with us in the mountains as we don't frequently have people join us in the mountains that much.  We had a fun day and a tasty dinner in Breckenridge.

After dinner we headed over to Frisco for the fireworks that are shot out over the Lake Dillon.  Our normal fireworks view spot was unavailable this year as the Frisco police had access to the Middle School Parking lot closed off.  So instead we found an alternative spot across Highway 9 and sat on the hood of the car to watch.  As soon as the fireworks were complete we headed back to the condo, got the dogs and made the trip down from the mountains to home.  We arrived right around midnight which was a perfect time as Zack was exhausted and went straight to bed.  It almost gave me 8 hours of sleep before I had to be up for my first conference call on Tuesday morning. 

The rest of this week has been uneventful and I am greatly looking forward to the coming weekend.  There is a ton of things starting to happening around the house that will result in big changes!  I am really looking forward to getting those changes started.

On a "little bit of everything" note - I discovered something totally new this evening about wine.  I had some time on my hands this evening and so I was reading the "Wine Enthusiast" magazine and I discovered an entirely new category of wines of which I had never before heard.  They are called "Icewines" and are made from grapes that are harvested once temperatures have gone below 17 degrees Fahrenheit.  The frozen grapes provide a very concentrated juice that is very rich in sugars.  This then factors into the tastes that is created by fermenting the juice.  I don't really understand how this works as I would think that the grapes would go bad before they are harvested.  These kinds of wines are only produced in the far northern latitudes.  (This makes me just think how much I miss the times in the past when I could share a bottle of wine with my partner and have a wonderful evening.  Oh how I miss those times!!)

Another "little bit of everything" is that I really need to find a cure for submissive peeing in Finnegan!  This afternoon my brother brought Cole over to spend the evening with us.  When Tim came in the door Finn totally and completely lost it and peed all over the place.  Needless to say I was not happy!  Then with the thunderstorms this evening, Finn did it again!!  I will be talking to my vet about how to prevent this with our wonderful little puppy as it is frustrating as all heck!!

One last "little bit of everything" to add.  The following is some of the video I shot in the mountains from my bike cam.  I got to say I am a little bit  enamored with the bike cam right now.  I am shooting every ride that we go on.  This is some video from when Tim, Celinde, Cole, Zack and I were riding from Frisco to Copper Mountain.  Some of the scenery is pretty cool if you ask me!!




(Agh - didn't turn out as good as I wanted because the file size was so big.  It was too big even for YouTube.  So I had go back and edit it down to 10 minutes.  Eventually I will get all this right so that I can post videos easily on the blog.  Maybe I need to try making them flash videos as opposed to Windows Media Files.  If anyone has any recommendations I would love to hear them.)

That's about it for a Wednesday night!  Hope that all everyone is having a good week so far!

Thanks and peace to all! ~J.

 

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Finnegan Learns His Trade

Dogs have been part of my family for most of my life.  As a child we got a dog when I was 4 and we had her until she died when I was 18.  A few years after that my parents got another dog.  As soon as Patty and I purchased our first house in 1996 we got our first dog within a week of moving in.  Since that first dog - Bailey, I have had a continuously unbroken string of dogs in my house with the most recent addition being Finnegan.

One of the things that has been really marvelous about having two dogs at a time but of different ages, is that the youngest dog is taught the ropes by the older dog.  Bailey taught Devon and Lex and now Lex is teaching Finnegan.  This weekend has been Finn's first real education in one of his primary job's - trail dog.  Finn has learned most of what he needs to know around the house and though Lex isn't a good of a teacher as was Bailey he has done OK.  But where Lex seems to excel is teaching Finnegan what to do when we are out hiking.

Typically I let the dogs off leash when hiking unless it is specifically prohibited by local law or if I feel the pups might get into trouble.  But - I have to be at a point where I trust the dog and I typically don't trust puppies.  Finnegan has been a great exception to the rule.  By his nature he wants to stay close to me and Lex so he has done a great job being out on the trail without a leash.  Lex also did a great job "herding" Finn the way to go.  If Finn was going off in the opposite direction, Lex would be sure to be at his side and bump into Finn to get him going in the right direction.  I am definitely please with how fast Finn is catching on to the concept of being out on the trail and doing the right things.  He is learning his trade as a "trail dog" very quickly!!

The weekend seems to just be flying by as we have been busy from sun up to sunset.  We arrived at our condo around 7:30PM on Friday night.  Once my brother and his family arrived all 5 of us went out for some dinner at the Dillon Dam Brewery.  The brewery is by far my favorite place to dine out here in the mountains.

Zack and I spent most of Saturday with Tim, Celinde and Cole as we rode the Vail Pass bike path up to Copper Mountain and back.  We stopped there for lunch and had a very enjoyable day overall.  Zack was amazing in how well he did riding up hill to Copper!  He was like a machine and for the most part just kept going and going.  I had thought he was going to have a tough time with it due to the steep nature of the trail but he did great.  He is really starting to come into his own in so many ways!  I can't express how proud I am that he is really starting to mature and work through a lot of issues that have plagued him these last couple of years!

After our day of biking we were pretty much exhausted so I made some dinner for us at the condo and then we just stayed in watching TV and hanging out.  I spent a good part of the evening sitting out on the condo's deck enjoying some wine while I watch the sun fade from the sky.  It was a very relaxing and good evening.  On top of that I have installed a gate on the deck so that the dogs can be out on the deck without being able to run down the stairs and run off.  So for much of the evening either Finnegan or Lex was curled up at my feet.  It was an evening of happiness in the moment in which I was living.  And all the happiness and contentment came exclusively from me and being by myself.  That felt good!

Today - Sunday Zack and I were back biking again as Tim, Celinde and Cole had gone over to Vail to see some friends.  We did 15 miles on the Lake Dillon/Frisco bike trail.  We did have one little incident though when Zack crashed.  He was about 20 yards behind me so I didn't see it but I sure did hear it.  I heard the sound of a bike tire skidding followed by the sound of a bike going off the trail and then crashing.  Zack didn't start crying or screaming or anything like that he just called out "DAD".  I turned around quickly and got back to him.  Even before I could reach him 2 people who were behind him had stopped to help him.  Thankfully he suffered hardly any injuries at all.  He had a few scrapes and brush burns but that was all.  We were very lucky!

Lulu - my brother's dog did not escape an incident today as easily as Zack escaped his crash.  This morning when Celinde had the dogs out for their morning walk, Lulu decided to take on a porcupine.  Needless to say - Lulu came out the loser in that battle and ended up in the puppy ER with lots of quills in her muzzle and mouth.  Apparently she did OK with the surgery to remove them as Tim and Celinde took her to Vail with them.  Poor Lulu - I am sure she isn't feeling too good this evening!  (But I do bet she will give porcupines a wide berth from here on out.)

After we finished up our ride we got the bikes on the car and headed to Leadville for lunch at the Golden Burro Cafe and a visit to National Fish Hatchery on the outskirts of town.  The Golden Burro isn't anything special but it kind of is a Leadville tradition, so every time we are in Leadville we stop and have lunch there.  As for the Fish Hatchery...  I don't know but both Zack and I just think it is a lot of fun to stop and visit.  With the amount that Zack has been going fishing recently it definitely makes sense that he would be interested in how the fish are hatched and grown til they can be stocked in the streams and lakes of Colorado.

This evening we are going to watch Harry Potter 7.1 and have leftovers from yesterday.  Ah...  a good end to a fun and enjoyable day.

Now totally switching gears from my normal - "here what we have been up to" blog entry.  In my last blog entry I mentioned how that we were approaching the 3 year anniversary of Patty's final struggle and passing.  This date - July 3 is one of the most bittersweet of those last days.  It was the day that I had my last real conversation with Patty.  As per usual I spent most of the day at the hospital with her.  But I had committed to Zack that I was going to take him to Dave and Busters for dinner and then to see the Disney movie Wall-E.  So as the afternoon wore on I started to look at the clock.  Early in the day I had talked to Patty about going outside, but there was too much stuff that came up from physical therapy to various different doctors dropping by, etc.  Yet around 2:30PM that afternoon she told me that she wanted to go outside.  Getting Patty outside wasn't an easy activity as she required a special wheelchair, portable oxygen and a portable medicine pump that could accommodate 4 different medicines at once.  The set up time for everything and getting everything approved with her nurses took a while.

I was tempted to tell Patty that going out could wait until the next day, but for whatever reason that day I decided I was just going to push through things and get her outside.  The day was perfect as the temperature was only in the low 80's and there was a nice breeze blowing.  It took a bit to get everything set up but then we were freed from all the plugs, wires and tubes that were attached to the wall and we were free to go outside.  There was this special courtyard in the center of the hospital that I used sit in some times to just catch my mental/emotional breath.  So I decided to take her there.  It had been probably a month since Patty had been outside so it was a very special treat for her.  She looked at the sky and felt the breeze and we shared a very good conversation.  I will always remember those 30 minutes in that courtyard.  Maybe we both knew what was coming upon us the next day.  I really don't know why I didn't put her off that day and I really don't know why she wanted to go outside.  I didn't do anything special but those 30 minutes gave us one last moment together as husband and wife, as life partners before Patty began to fade away from this life.

And with that I will say - I hope everyone has a fun and safe 4th of July!

Thanks for reading my ramblings, it is cheaper to write this then to go to the therapist.  Oh wait a minute...  I do go to a therapist!  LOL!  Just a little humor to lighten up my mood as I finish this post!

Thanks and peace to all! ~J.

PS - I would like to add some pictures to this post, but I recently switched broadband carriers from Sprint to AT&T and I am paying the price as the AT&T Broadband network is just not very good.  So I can't get any pictures uploaded from here in the mountains.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Regret

Many of you who read this blog know the story so I am not going to go into details.  But in the last 12 months I have had literally dozens of new followers so I wanted to offer this brief explanation.

Three years ago this summer my wife Patty died.  In past years I have noted her death by one simple post.  This years there have been lots of thoughts going through my mind about Patty and all that has happened since she died.  So I have decided to write several blog entries about her and all that happened during those horrible days of July 4 - July 14th.  For those who don't know the detailed story you can check out Patty's Caringbridge Site for a complete telling of the story.  That address is: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/pattykromer.

Today's blog entry and several more over the next 2 weeks is dedicated to Patty and her memory.


Back in the day New Order was the one and only musical group for me.  I loved anything and everything that had to do with New Order.  Back in 1987 I actually got to see them in concert at the Pittsburgh Civic Arena.  It was the highlight of the summer!

So I have embedded this song on my blog for two reasons.  The first is simply because it is New Order and it was something that Patty and I shared together.  We loved New Order and other artists of the 1980 and would listen to this kind of music for our entire marriage.  (I can't totally remember but I think we used a New Order song for the first song at our wedding reception.  Not because it was real classy or anything, but simply because it represented us.)  Anyway - I wanted to post this today as we are entering that period of the year - from July 1 to July 14 when Patty was in the final battle for her life.  Three years have passed since those days but I remember them like the were yesterday.  So I am putting this song up on the blog for her.

The second reason that I put "Regret" on the blog was a question that Allen asked me when he visited 2 weeks ago.  From June 21 - June 28, 2008 I took part in Bicycle Tour Colorado with Allen.  It was a time in which Patty looked to be pretty stable and it was the first respite I had from being Patty's care taker in almost 2 years.  I could do the bike trip and not have to worry about anything for a week as I had others looking out for things for me.  Of course I didn't know at the time Patty only had 3 weeks left to live.

Allen asked me if I regretted or felt guilty because I was gone for the entire week only a short time before Patty died.  I answered him with a distinct "NO".  To this day there is only one thing I regret or feel guilt about concerning Patty's illness and death and that is because I didn't question the decision to have a bone marrow transplant hard enough.  Had Patty not had that transplant there are 50/50 odds she would still be alive.  That is a hard thing for me to think through.  At one point in December 2006, Patty was wavering on whether or not to go ahead with the transplant.  We talked about it for a long, long time but my general response was "The doctors are telling you that you need to this transplant to be cured.  I think you have to go ahead with it because they have the best set of knowledge and really know what needs to be done."  Oh my - if only I could have toned down those words a little bit.  If only.....  If only....   But I didn't and as a result it is something that I regret to this day!

I hope everyone has a great safe and fun weekend ahead!